http://www.nytimes.com/2011/04/26/health/26anorexia.html?_r=1&src=tptw While I disagree with the premise that recovery is not possible for everyone (I truly believe it is), I think this article raises an interesting point about how we define recovery. Is it when weight restoration and normal menstruation occur? Is it when the patient stops obsessing about food? I think the process of [...]
Here is a fun poem I wrote about college. I went to college at Penn State-Erie, and the one winter I was there, Erie got something like 160 inches of snow (mostly due to the lake effect phenomenon). It was crazy, but often fun. “Lake Effect” by Nicole Johns that winter the snow developed over [...]
Here is another poem of mine. I wrote it in response to an old picture I found of me and my grandpa. I’ll have to see if I can dig up the picture and post it. “Buck Season, 1984″ by Nicole Johns blustery, late November wind whines through the brittle leaves on the maples and [...]
Pica is an eating disorder where people eat non-food substances. There doesn’t seem to be much dialogue surrounding pica, but I came across this book review/article that is interesting. http://www.salon.com/books/feature/2011/04/12/craving_earth_sera_l_young
Here is another one of my poems. I wrote this one after driving past the remains of the 35W bridge collapse, everyday, for over a year. All the twisted steel was laid out in a local park that was easily visible from the East River Road in Minneapolis. At night, the park was lit up, [...]
Here is a poem I wrote: “Rush Hour” by Nicole Johns what does it mean to tell you this? to sit static on the interstate and think of the place i used to call home a time and a space rolling in memory the person i was three lives ago gone. all of us have [...]
My MFA is from the University of Minnesota, but I did my undergrad at Penn State-Erie, and so when I saw this article, it saddened me. PSU has been forced to cut funding for its MFA students (not the current ones, but incoming ones). The funding I received was the main reason I was able [...]
I would occasionally like to share some of my poetry in this blog (especially during National Poetry Month) and so today’s poem is one of mine. I hope you enjoy it. “Poetry at 4 A.M.” by Nicole Johns red-eyed and hungry pre-dawn darkness, there are others pouring their first cup of espresso, scratching shaved legs [...]
I was reading my Nervous Breakdown RSS feed yesterday and came across this gem: http://www.thenervousbreakdown.com/mbaldwin/2011/04/a-creative-bestiary/ Anyone who has ever been in a creative writing workshop will find this hilarious. Workshops are usually filled with odd characters, and this article does a good job of summarizing the typical types of workshop participants. For the record, I [...]
As you may have noticed, I am using this blog to talk about more than just eating disorders. I did have two separate blogs (this one and feelingminnesotan) but I have now decided to just have this blog. I will still blog about eating disorders and mental health issues, but I will also be blogging [...]

